On The Hook

I've been a fan of this show since late last year, and there are a lot of episodes that really made me laughed real hard. There could be a lot of misconceptions about life and love on this TV series (esp Barney's FYI's), however, there are just some scenes or issues that will make you think and sigh, cos you can see yourself (or past life) in the story. LOL.

So two weeks ago, I've had a marathon of the latest season's episodes and there's this episode (the 16th one, I think) entitled, "Hooked". Basically, it's about stringing along someone's interest in you until someone better is available. So here, you can be the one on the hook or the hooker, and that brings us to a regret I've had a couple of years back.

I wouldn't really know exactly if I've hooked someone on my strings, cos I'm not an ass like that, however there's this time when I've been on someone's hook -- big time.

I met him during my summer class in college. We became close cos he would usually tease me and I think we were seatmates back then. Even though classes had ended, we still kept in touch almost everyday. We talked on the phone for hours and texted each other every now and then. I really couldn't tell if he likes me, but I was beginning to like him cos he's really fun to be with.

We became busy with school stuff so we barely talk or see each other. Whenever we got a chance to catch up on each other's lives, he would share that he was beginning to like someone that started a month or two ago. So yeah, I kinda assumed it was me. Ugh.

Then there was this time that I saw him hanging out with a girl and that really shocked me. I asked him who she was and he told me that it was the girl that he's been referring to in his stories. I tried to keep my cool and said that I'm happy for him. I knew then that I had to move on and just accept the fact it's not meant to be. But I really dunno what happened then, that I managed to do the stupidest thing in my life: confess my feelings for him. It was such a shame. He told me that he liked me back when we were still hanging out a lot, but it just didn't last.

After that confession, we just remained friends and tried to bring things back to normal. I told you guys that admitting my feelings was stupid, right? That was because it began this "on the hook" thing. And here are the instances where he started controlling that string:

• Whenever he needs someone to help him with his school work, I would be the first person he had in mind. Even though my class would start at 12, he'd meet up with me at 9am cos his class would start at 10. Then I'll just bum around for 2 hours. And this happened not just once, twice nor thrice.
• Whenever he'll start dating / seeing someone new, I'm totally out of the picture. Like he didn't know me at all. And when he'd start calling my house / texting me again, I knew he had just broken up with that girl he had recently dated. And he would totally forget me again once he meet someone new. I thought that it was a never-ending cycle. My friends would scold me for being so stupid, but I just couldn't resist him. Yeah, just like that teacup pig in How I Met Your Mother.

The worst part on that "calling/texting me whenever a girl dumps him" happened in 2006. It was almost a year since we've last talked and he suddenly called me up. To tell you that I was surprised was an understatement. So we started catching up on those lost years, and there he told me that he just broke up with this girl he's been seeing for a year (yeah, that's why he forgot me for a year). I wanted to hang up the phone right there and then. But as usual, I can't. He told me that he still wanted their relationship to work and he's been trying to contact her for a couple of days already. Then after 30 minutes of talking, he said that he needed to go because this girl just texted him and said that they needed to talk. That was the last time that I got a chance to talk to him and up until now, I think that they're still together. He totally forgot that I existed and he even deleted me on his social networking accounts.

Look at how jerk he was, and stupid I was back then. It's been so hard to let go once you've been on someone's hook. I hate these "hookers" who take advantage on someone else's feelings, and just keep them around until someone better comes along.

I'm afraid that this could happen to me again because once you've been on the hook, you would never really notice that you've been hooked by someone. You'll probably be in denial, not until you see those small details that you've overlooked, and finally have the courage to move on, stop hoping and just cut the string.