The Universe is Funny. Really.

"Right when she’d given up and stopped looking, she stumbled into her own fairytale." -Dawson's Creek

It has been a month or two since I've given up on something that I really wanted. I thought I was patient enough, err, maybe I was still willing to wait, however, there are those times that you know that it's going nowhere and you just have to stop; just for everyone's sake.

I recently realized that I was right about moving on. It was universed! The sudden twist of events left me dumbfounded cos I really didn't see it coming. I was (or am still?) apprehensive because things can get complicated in time, but there's no harm in trying, right? Right?

I've been ecstatic the past few weeks, cos maybe I missed this kind of feeling. It's been some time since I've had a real date! Also, I missed having sensible / gibberish talk over a cup of coffee. It's now back to square one, I guess.

But just when I thought that things were already falling into places, something came up that made me distressed. Why? The person I've given up hope will leave in two weeks time. I remember when I was in high school, I believed that when you're too happy, it wouldn't last long; sadness will come next. It was shallow, I know. But hey, it happened again. And because of this, I almost cried on my way home earlier. It was when my last relationship ended that I cried (like, real hard) inside a bus, and I really didn't care if people were staring at me. I realized that I will sure miss him being there all the time. I'm happy for him, though, cos he's been waiting for this to happen for the longest time. But don't get me wrong here. There were no rekindled feelings. It's just that I hate it when people leave; I hate all sorts of goodbyes.

Anyway, I know the universe has a plan, and that plan is always in motion. It’s a scary thought, but it’s also kind of wonderful. Did I just quote Ted Mosby, again? Heh. For now, I would just enjoy whatever it is that makes me giddy the past few weeks, and maybe, it'll be all worth it.

My Last Birthday With You

So it was 8 years ago, when I've had one of my happiest birthday celebration ever.

It was my 16th birthday, and I thought I would have the usual birthday celebration just like the past years: I would treat my friends for a snack then go home for a family dinner. Right after classes had ended, me and my friends went out for a snack. It was just around 5 in the afternoon, I think. Then an hour later, I received a text message from you, asking me where I was. I told you that I was out with friends, and I was surprised with your reply.

"Maaga nga ako umuwi kasi naghanda ako sa birthday mo. Umuwi ka na."

So I went home immediately after reading that text message. I was surprised seeing that you've prepared a lot of food, (more than my usual birthday celebration) and you've bought me a new mobile phone, too! We had a fun dinner that night.

It was the year after that I came to realize that it was my last birthday with you. So that's why you were mad when I went home a little late than usual during my 16th birthday. I also remember that you were extra sweet to me that day. If only I had known that you'd be gone too soon, I could've done things that you would be so proud of.

It's been 7 years since you left us, but I would always miss you. It's my 24th birthday tomorrow, and I wish I were celebrating it with you. It's also Father's Day today, and if you were still here, I bet it would be a double celebration.

Happy Father's Day, Papa.

Boyfriend Classification, How I Met Your Mother Style

I was reading my old blog entries on my livejournal account when I saw this post I've had last February. I just love this show so much, that I even compare my future relationship on these guys. Heh.

I have the biggest crush on Ted Mosby since I started watching How I Met Your Mother. But if you would ask me if who among the HIMYM characters would I want to have as my boyfriend, I'd choose Marshall Eriksen .

Ted Mosby embodies a boyfriend per se; one who would run an extra mile just to knock you off your feet. The hopeless romantic who always believe in destiny. While Marshall Eriksen is your best friend / boyfriend type of lover. He may not be the sweetest guy that you'll ever meet, but being with him means having a day of endless laughter.

The best TV couple ever -- Marshall & Lily Eriksen.

I am in love with the Marshall & Lily tandem. They are not just husband & wife but also partners in crime. Who wouldn't want to have a love story just like theirs?

“Marshall, I love you because you’re funny and you make me feel loved and you make feel safe. And for our anniversary you gave me a sweatshirt that says, “Lily and Marshall, Rockin’ since ‘96” I kinda wish I was wearing it right now cause it smells like you. But the main reason I love you, Marshall Eriksen, is you make me happy. You make me happy all the time." - Lily Aldrin (the sweetest marriage vow ever!)

Okay, I am really having a hard time defining these types of boyfriend that I am trying to point here. So here's the deal, I've recently realized that I want to have a ~barkada/ best friend~ type of boyfriend. One that I could have endless conversation just about anything under the sun. You could crack jokes that only the two of you would understand. 4 of my ex-boyfriends were like Ted Mosby, and most of the Marshall Eriksen type that I meet always end up as an "almost lover".

I've been in and out of relationship for the past 10 years and it is just with the recent ex-boyfriend that I've had this kind of realization. That's why when someone was trying to court me 3 months ago, I immediately turned him down cos I know that he's just another Ted Mosby. I really don't want to start our relationship in dating; set the friendship first, then let's see what happens next.

I think I have yet to meet my Marshall Eriksen. Or hmm.

Things had changed the past few months. I still want to meet my Marshall Eriksen, however, a little bit of Ted Mosby would be better. :)

Gabe Bondoc Will Tell You My Story

I have the biggest crush on this talented singer/songwriter/ guitarist/ nerd for almost 2 years now. Look how adorable he is whenever he's singing, and how dimples appear whenever he says "Ello" at the start of his videos.

So anyway, when people ask me "What's new with you?" or "How are you today", I'd just come up with several versions of "I'm fine", but there are really a lot of stories to tell. I was in the mood to listen to some of Gabe Bondoc's covers on my way to work this morning, and then it just struck me, that maybe a couple of Gabe's covers/original songs could somehow narrate or summarize those piled up stories.

So almost a year ago:

I Remember (Keyshia Cole)



I remember when my heart broke

I remember when I gave up loving you
My heart couldn't take no more of you
I was sad and lonely

Then an unexpected thing happened:

Fallin For You (Colbie Caillat)



I am trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

But you know that some things take time:

My Plan (Gabe Bondoc original)



Even though I like to keep you mine,
My plan is not to change your mind
I'll lock the feelings deep inside,
For another time, for another time

But no matter how you much you try to think that it's not meant to be, you just can't control what you really want and feel:

Stronger Than (Gabe Bondoc original)

I swear I'm stronger than these emotions
But they're taking over me

At the end of the day, you'd end up wondering if it is all worth it:

Chasing Pavements - (Adele)

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?

There you go. Lol that was sappy.

Last Weekend

It was the weekend after payday and so I decided to splurge a bit and hang out with my friends.

Saturday:

I planned to go home immediately after work, cos I wanna have enough sleep before going out for a drink with my high school friends. But one of my office buddies, Justin, asked me to accompany him cos he wants to buy a new phone. I also ended up buying a new phone for myself. Heh.

I got this water jug as a freebie for that phone, and decided to give it to Zach instead.

And later that night, I went out for a drink with 2 of my high school friends. Too bad that the rest didn't make it. Also, it's one of the few times that I went out drinking and I don't get home drunk. Yay for me!

Nen, Flo, Kat

Franco, Mike, Rex

The pseudo-lovers. LOL!

So I was the "fifth wheel" during that night. Flo was with Franco, while Nen was with Rex. But then Mike came to join the fun, however, he just stayed for almost an hour. Still, it was a fun night!

Sunday:

I finally had a chance to hang out again with my best friend's twin brother, Anthony. It's been months since we were planning to meet up, but because of our busy schedules, it just wouldn't happen. I also bought him a scarf during my Baguio trip last February, and it was just this day that he finally got it.

We had these for lunch at Teriyaki Boy:

Then had some sweet dessert in Krispy Kreme after:

You may be wondering why he's dressed up like this. Heh. It's because he just came from a flight attendant application earlier that day. And then he needed to go home immediately after that, and since I was already in the Cubao vicinity, I decided to do some thrift shopping. :)

Things are different for this week, though. I'm just enjoying the bed weather so I might as well stay at home the whole day.

17 Days

So summady's excited for her birthday, eh? Yeah, maybe. But there are also certain things that made me giddy during the past few days:

1. Rainy Season
The rainy season here in our country usually starts by the end of May or the first week of June. I remember 2 years ago, I celebrated my birthday with no electricity because of Typhoon Frank. Lol. So when PAGASA announced that this year's summer would be extended on my birthday month, I thought that for the first time, I would celebrate my birthday on a hot weather. As much as I would like that to happen, I dread the country's temperature during the past few months that it was almost unbearable. But I guess we could now sleep under a blanket, cos the rainy season is finally here!

2. New camera / mobile phone
So it was last February when I lost both my camera and mobile phone. My phone was snatched from my mom when she borrowed it one night cos hers was broken. And as for my camera, I still don't have an idea how it got lost in our own home. So my mom gave me money in replacement of my lost phone, and I decided to buy a cheap QWERTY phone from Cherry Mobile. I heard it's pretty durable, plus I was eyeing for a phone that has a QWERTY keypad for some time now. Heh. I'm a cheapskate so brands don't matter. Then 2 days ago, my mom texted me that my grandma gave her a new digital camera. She's in the province right now, so I haven't seen the camera yet. Yay?

3. Morning Shift
I've been on graveyard shift for almost 3 years, and I think this is the longest time that I experienced sleeping at night. It's pretty relaxing, plus this reminds me of my student days in which I have to wake up before sunrise, and go home before sunset. Heh. But I miss my office friends cos they are all on night shift. Well, this is just temporary, though.

4. Weight Loss
Lol I dunno. Some people kept on noticing that I've lost some weight recently. Yay, right? But honestly, it's not intentional. Maybe I just lost appetite the past few weeks? But for the past years, I've noticed that I usually lose weight whenever I feel giddy, and I tend to gain weight whenever I'm broken-hearted. Lol on this body metabolism.

4. Lovelife?
For the past 3 years, I've been celebrating my birthdays with my then-boyfriends. But it will be different this year cos I'll celebrate it with friends, which would be fun! So who needs a boyfriend, right? Loljk. I just don't wanna elaborate on this stuff right now. All I can say that things are confusing, but overwhelming. I guess you can somehow connect it on my recent weight loss. Haha!